I am not, and you have been lied to.

Around 2012 I became briefly interested in extreme ideologies, mainly 20th century fascism. Under a pseudonym, I posted about it on a now defunct message board. Over time I changed, and no longer held the anger and interests that brought me there. My activity diminished into trash-posting and quietly ceased. I quit and slowly forgot about it over the years.

In late 2020, some of these posts were dug up by a group of self-described Anarcho-Communist "anti-fascists" engaging in blackmail and doxxing as a form of activism. Their idea of "reaching out for comment" was to flood my livestream chat, harass my audience, and accuse me of still being an active neo-fascist, when I absolutely was not.

This was not the behavior of good faith actors, so I saw no reason to reward their hostility with an immediate reply and unconditional compliance. Before I had time to consider how to respond, they immediately published a hitpiece filled with some truths nestled among far more hyperbolic exaggerations, misattributions, and outright lies.

They contacted my various platforms and payment processors, in an attempt to destroy my career as a comic artist, my future employability, my ability to afford housing or basic needs, and to forever isolate me from friends.

This is all plainly visible in the dossier, in their own words.

This attempt to ruin my life failed, and the majority of my friends and audience stood by me. They saw I had changed much over the years, waited to hear my side of the story, and perceived how my attackers were motivated by ideological malice rather than truth-seeking.

Nonetheless, a small number of obsessed individuals still occasionally spread disinformation in attempts to harm my livelihood, or to intimidate others from associating with me.

Those posts were made over 12 years ago, during the worst years of my life, when I had lapsed away from the Christianity I grew up with. It was a period ignited by personal trauma, then exacerbated by a series of events during my Marine Corps service and Afghanistan deployment.

Several of my friends had died senselessly. I had recently sustained a Traumatic Brain Injury which wouldn't be properly diagnosed until years later. I lost my faith and became abjectly cynical, was self-medicating with alcohol, had crippling depression, and frequent anxiety attacks. There was also a lot of trending rhetoric from industry peers, labeling "privileged" young men like myself at the time as increasingly undesirable in comics and animation.

When you have no hope for the future, it can be tempting to indulge in Accelerationist fantasies of societal collapse, rather than facing your own brokenness in the real world. Apocalyptic Neo-Fascist political theory at the time presented an intriguingly taboo "intellectual middle finger" through which to anonymously channel the rage and misanthropy I felt at the time.

I reject political violence, and any worldview built on racial resentment or ethno-narcissism. It is simply disagreeable to me, unacceptable to my family (several of whom are mixed race), and heretical to my church to the point of excommunication.

In 2018, several years after tiring of online edgelording, I became an Antiochian Orthodox Christian. If you've been told that my conversion was just a "rebrand" for my past ideations, this church would be a comically poor fit. It is a multi-racial parish founded by Arab/Levantine Americans, and the chapel prominently features large wall icons of the martyrs St. Alexander Schmorell and St. Maria of Paris.

If I had to point to any 20th century figure I try to emulate now, it would be JRR Tolkien. My life is solely oriented towards creativity, fitness, faith, and supporting my family. I'm a rather moderate American patriot.

I am not "Alt-Right", a White Nationalist, Fascist, National Socialist, or any "Neo-" variant of those. Anyone who tells you otherwise is either misinformed or a liar.

"Guilt by association" is a moronic premise which I reject entirely. I will never censor my daily interactions to appease a few morality-policing histrionics and pathological liars.

Interaction does not equal endorsement, and agreeing with one idea does not equal agreement with the source's other ideas. Normal, independently thinking people have always understood this.

Generally I strive to treat everyone with respect and compassion who does the same for me, regardless of their worldview or identity. If someone expresses foolish or destructive ideologies (especially ones I may have past experience with), engaging them with human reason and dialog, rather than threats and ostracization, is more effective in persuading them to reconsider.

Most people encounter no trouble for associating with me. I have a pretty welcoming and thriving audience, which has continued to steadily grow over the years.

However, if your peers are intrusively controlling to the point of policing who you interact with, and you feel unsafe about debating or dismissing them, then I ask that you not put yourself at unecessary risk. Appreciate my work from a safe distance instead, and keep our communications private.

Also, find better friends.

That's fine. I am not entitled to anyone's trust, nor will I debase myself with submissive accountability and reparational theatre for your approval. If you've read this far, you at least have commendable curiosity, and are free to contact me if you'd like to know more.

If you do not trust my words, then judge me by my works; read my graphic novel when it is released. If you prefer to not financially support me because you believe I have some malign ideological agenda, then I invite you to pirate my book.

This story is the message I have devoted the last several years of my life to. It is about fighting for Love against all odds, in spite of a dying world of forever war.

Read, and see what I truly believe.