I am not, and you have been lied to.

Around 2012 I became interested in 20th century Fascist political theory, and posted under a pseudonym on a now-defunct Fascist message board. Over time I lost interest in the ideology. My activity diminished into trash-posting and quietly ceased around 2014. I silently quit so as to not draw attention from the increasingly deranged and dangerous crowd it attracted, and was glad to largely forget about it over the years.

In late 2020, some of these posts were dug up by a group of self-described Anarcho-Communist "anti-fascists" engaging in blackmail and doxxing as a form of activism. Their idea of "reaching out for comment" was to flood my livestream chat, harass my audience, and accuse me of still being an active neo-fascist, when I absolutely was not.

This was not the behavior of good faith actors, so there was no reason to reward their hostility with an immediate reply and unconditional compliance. Before I had time to consider how to respond, they launched a hitpiece filled with some truths nestled among far more hyperbolic exaggerations and outright lies. I never once used the username I was accused of posting under, and several quotes are misattributed to me.

They contacted my various platforms and payment processors, in an attempt to destroy my career as a comic artist, my future employability, my ability to afford housing or basic needs, and to forever isolate me from friends.

This is all plainly visible in the dossier, in their own words.

This attempt to ruin my life failed, and the majority of my friends and audience stood by me. They saw I had changed much over the years, waited to hear my side of the story, and perceived how my attackers were motivated by ideological malice rather than truth-seeking.

A small number of obsessed individuals still occasionally spread disinformation in attempts to harm my livelihood, or to intimidate others from associating with me. I am not a bigot or engaged in the harmful activities they accuse me of, so they rely on deceptively presenting outdated information out of context, hoping to convince uncritical thinkers that I have some covert Nazi agenda.

Those posts were made over 12 years ago, during the worst years of my life. It occurred during a period of bitter despair following a series of traumas, some them during my Marine Corps service and Afghanistan deployment, some of it personal, all of it happening in a very sudden and short time frame.

Several of my friends had died senselessly. I was heavily affected by a recent Traumatic Brain Injury, which wouldn't be properly identified and diagnosed until years later by the VA. I lost my faith and became abjectly cynical, an alcoholic, had crippling depression, and constant invasive thoughts that resulted in daily anxiety attacks. There was also a lot of trending rhetoric from industry peers, labeling "privileged" young men like myself at the time as increasingly undesirable in comics and animation.

To some, destructive ideologies can feel empowering when your future seems hopeless. For that period, rather than facing and struggling with my inner ugliness, I fed it. Apocalyptic neo-Fascist theory presented an intriguingly taboo "intellectual middle finger" through which to anonymously channel the rage and misanthropy I held at that time.

I reject bigotry, political violence, and any worldview built on racial resentment or ethno-narcissism. It would also be unacceptable to my family (several of whom are mixed race), and heretical to my faith, to the point of excommunication.

In 2018, several years after tiring of online edgelording, I became an Antiochian Orthodox Christian. If you've been told that my conversion was just a "rebrand" for my past ideations, this church would be a comically poor fit. It is a multi-racial parish founded by Arab/Levantine Americans, and the chapel prominently features large wall icons of St. Alexander Schmorell and St. Maria of Paris who were martyred by real Nazis.

If I had to point to any 20th century figure I try to emulate now, it would be JRR Tolkien. My life is solely oriented towards creativity, fitness, faith, and supporting my family. I'm a rather moderate American patriot.

I am not "Alt-Right", a White Nationalist, Fascist, National Socialist, or any "Neo-" variant of those. Anyone who tells you otherwise is either misinformed or a liar.

People who say you only need to "put in the work" to be rehabilitated, while simultaneously hoping to see you curb-stomped. People who think it's funny to employ petty sexual harassment as a form of activism. People who are okay with those behaviors, and believe accusations they hear online without critical examination.

Generally, people I've been given no reason to expect fairness from, even if I offered them my total, abject compliance.

"Guilt by association" is a moronic premise which I reject entirely. I will never censor my interactions to appease a few morality-policing histrionics and pathological liars.

Interaction does not equal endorsement, and agreeing with one idea does not equal agreement with the source's other ideas. Normal, independently thinking people have always understood this.

Generally I strive to treat everyone with respect and compassion who does the same for me, regardless of their worldview or identity. If someone expresses foolish or destructive ideologies (especially ones I may have past experience with), pateintly engaging them with human reason and dialog, rather than threats and ostracization, is more effective in persuading them to reconsider.

Most people encounter no trouble for associating with me. I have a pretty welcoming and thriving audience, which has continued to steadily grow over the years.

However, if your peers are intrusively controlling to the point of policing who you interact with, and you feel unsafe about debating or dismissing them, then I ask that you not put yourself at unecessary risk. Appreciate my work from a safe distance instead, and keep our communications private.

Also, find better friends.

I don't subscribe to Fascist or National Socialist ideology, nor would I want to live under either system. It is entirely possible to cease having extremist ideas, and resume trying to live a normal life without subjecting myself to a future of submissive accountability and reparational theatre. Anyone who tells you otherwise isn't concerned with community safety, but control.

If you doubt my words, then judge me by my works; read my graphic novel when it is released. I invite you to pirate my book if you don't wish to financially support me.

This story is the Message I have devoted the last several years of my life to, and all I have time for. It is about fighting for Love against all odds, in spite of a dying world of forever war.

Read, and see what I truly believe.